So for as long as I can remember I have been praying for something. Then finally I get it, and it turns out that its not really what I want. Its like I can't be happy with what I have been given. I keep thinking well what if this or what if that. I keep wondering if I am settling because there are things that I want to be different.
For the last few weeks I have been having this internal conflict. Going back and forth with what to do. If it was truly what the Lord wanted wouldn't I feel complete happiness? I feel like I have been on an emotional roller coaster. I can go from high on life, to the depths of misery in .5 seconds. The littlest things can change my mood. I am not usually like that. I am a pretty easy going, roll with punches type of gal.
For all of you who have had to put up with this I am sorry. I promise it will get better one day, I just can't promise that day will be soon. I have a feeling that this is a decision that will take some time to make. I have to KNOW I am doing the best and right thing for me. (Hey you were warned I told you I analyzed everything) Thanks for your patience, I appreciate all the love and support.